| Lately I tell myself; |
[Jun. 25th, 2006|10:22 am] |
"I'll keep living... and make it through just for today."
I wake up thinking about how I didn't die. I can't feel happy.
"maybe something interesting will happen." I say...
It never does. I wonder if my hope is fading? I'll keep living anyways.
...I can't help but think this is probably what loneliness feels like... |
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| Memories resurrected from the past. |
[Jun. 13th, 2006|07:55 pm] |
Hold your breath and count to four
Pinky swears dont work no more
Footsteps down the hallway floor,
Getting closer to my door
I was alive, but now I'm singing
Silent Nights, for the rest of my life
"Forgive me, Father" won't make it right
Silent nights at the edge of your knife
(The holy water in his hands, can never wash away his sins)
Hold your breath and count to four
Pinky swears dont work no more
Put my trust in God that day,
But not the man who taught his way..
Whisper, whisper dont make a sound,
Your bed is made; its in the ground. |
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| Stolen from Quinne |
[May. 25th, 2006|02:00 pm] |
Take a look at your LJ friends list, then list up to ten things you want to say to 10 different LJ friends.
DO NOT state who these people are.
DO NOT confirm nor deny any "comment speculation".
1. You don't know who I really am, and I'll never tell you. I'm sorry that I hurt you.
2. Sometimes, I really think you hate me. I'm afraid of talking to you because I used to like you.
3. I miss talking to you. You don't know how much your friendship meant to me.
4. Even though we don't talk that much, I feel like you can understand me better than anyone.
5. I think you're a drama queeen, but I'll always love you. You still accept me, after all.
6. I feel like I can never get close to you.. after all this time, you suddenly talk to me? I'm hurt.
7. Other than our fandom, I don't know if we would even be close. I hope we would.
8. If it wasn't for you, I would have been a lot more depressed last month. Thank you.
9. You aren't as hated as you think you are.. you're a really kind person, and I wish you'd see that.
10. When I read your entries, they make me angry. You're so self-righteous. |
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| chimata de uwasa no SEXY ue ue! |
[May. 24th, 2006|09:25 am] |
I suck at para para, but it's SO FUN. OH GOD. I look like a spastic loser doing all these hand movements though. This song is so catchy though I CAN'T HELP IT. Curse you, Morning Musume. For all everyone says you have no talent, your songs still stick in my head for months at a time! WHAT SAY YOU TO THAT, HATERS. moaaaan. I have too much pent up energy.
In other news, I spent the ENTIRE day yesterday.. it was amazing. I woke up, got high. watched tv with my sister (big love, for the win!) and then smoked some more. got drunk. threw up. smoked some more. ate tons of junk food. mom came home and took us to dinner. I COULD BARELY WALK. IT WAS AMAZING! it was incredible. i came home and went to sleep. RINSE AND REPEAT.
summer is amazing. all i need is to start having permiscuous sex and i'll be set! ahahahaha........
i told my sister how i think i like someone i met on the computer. but he doesn't like me! so yeah, i'll never tell him. i tried doing it casually, but even just saying "i like you" is like.. even if its a joke to him, it has meaning for me. hah. COMPUTER RELATIONSHIPS ARE GROSS. someone kill me please! I want to scream really badly. sexy ue ue! |
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| I hate my life. |
[May. 22nd, 2006|11:09 am] |
I was watching The Sopranos with my sister last night. I used to hate it, but my mom got me to watch it and now I never miss and episode. What changed? Anyway, there's a scene where Tony was getting head from this stripper, and I must have been frowning or had an angry expression on. The following conversation between us ensued.
Me: ........
Her: You're that upset?
Me: .... Huh?
Her: It is sort of gross.
Me: It's not that.
Her: .....
*She laughs*
Her: It's jealousy, then?
Me: .... No! Don't be stupid.
*I feel myself turn red*
Her: He's like 30 years older than you.
Me: ..I know that much, and I told you to not be stupid!
Her: So, you wouldn't do that?
Me: ..............
Her: Well? Would you?
Me: ........ No! I mean....
Her: Which is it, then?
Me: ... FINE, OK? I MIGHT! Now shut up and leave me alone!
Her: .....Honestly? That's pretty sick, Laura. I was just messing around.
*I leave and go to my room to kill myself*
So, the moral of this story is that it's best not to reveal your darkest desires to anybody.
And yeah, so!? Gross, it's like I have an older-man complex. I CAN'T STAND IT. ・゜・(ノД`)・゜・。 |
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| I decided since I found it on his journal. |
[May. 21st, 2006|02:20 am] |
( Sorry, Sarcasteak! )
Ooh~hohoho! I love this! |
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| lovely complex |
[May. 11th, 2006|10:58 pm] |
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they're coming out with a live-action movie of this in the summer, but its being way overshadowed by the death note hype. whatever, i'll still see it. rabu con is one of my fave manga, it's hilarious and there's nothing OTT about it. by the way its about a girl who's taller than average and a guy who's shorter, and they're like best friends. but people always make fun of them and say how they look funny together but fit together so well personality wise. anyways, the girl feels like no one ever thinks of her as a girl because she's so tall, etc. over time she starts to realise that she has feelings for this annoying guy she says she hates, but what's different is he still doesn't see her as a girl. it's sort of sad and realistic but really funny, too. |
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| waaaa, bokura ga ita |
[May. 7th, 2006|12:33 am] |
this has become like, probably one of my favourite manga. and i hate myself for it because it's such a basic shoujo, but i'm in love. translation is SLOW though and raws are EVEN HARDER to find. i'm considering ordering the manga from japan..
..but..but even then, i wouldn't really know where to order from. i'm in such a bind!! shoot!! (;A;)
on a good note, THEY'RE MAKING IT INTO AN ANIME!!! WHAT. EVERYONE WATCH OUT FOR IT THIS SUMMER! |
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| QOTD |
[May. 4th, 2006|10:05 pm] |
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"The reason why so few good books are written is that so few people who can write know anything." |
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| Aaah |
[May. 2nd, 2006|05:40 pm] |
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Has anyone heard RYTHEM's new single? Negai? I love it. The lyrics are depressing, though.. |
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